I am a bit drunk.
I am also not wild or exciting or charsimatic...appparently. Then words kinda hurt me a bit, speshully when you have 5 hours fo work top think of their meaning.
I figure if someone is not exciting they are boring.
Am I boring????
Tis a bit bothering that the girl who I like who seems to like me back actually finds me boring and stuff.
I lost my glasses at Sumo, fuck knows when, I just realiseds that I was blind, and then I cried a bi cos I had a bad day and losing my geggs was just the tip of the iceberg.
And then Jon found them, which was a bit ace. Barman gave them to Jon, which is a bit cool.
I dont even know what charisma means haha.
Mars Bars when drunk rock.
My friends rock.
Tom rocks Carrie ;)
I rock no one :(
Drunk, alone, and sad, read mty profile, it says what kind of girlfriend I want.
Why is it that I can never seem to be happy. Why am I so damned unlucky with girls, and why do iI tend to fuck thing up so much.
I proper wish I was someone else.
Someone who got the girl.
Someone who lived happy ever after.
But I have tio deal with everyone else being happy and me bein not happy.
Its a bit shit, to be honest, or TBH as the kidz say.
As if I text my tutor, who is like some guy in his 50s who writes books on spies (Like Father Like Son: A Dynasty Of Spies) telling him to come to Sumo.
I want love. What the hell is sop wrong with nice guys that they are just left for dead by the girls.
Wsa thinking at work, I realised the thing that makes liking someone hurt the most.
The fact that I like them, and I think all these "what ifs" and "maybes" like maybe we ciould be perfect together and what if we were great with each other,
And its them what ifs and maybes that make things hurt the most, cos I think of all the great things and get it all built up, then it gets ripped from you like some sort of Terminator heart pulling out thin.
Thats what kills me the most
The what ifs.
The maybes.
Ive gone on a bit ha..ha.
Alcohoo, thats my excuse, I apologise if |I have offended anyone or whatevre.
Blame the vodka and coke at Sumo.
Just, where in the rule book is there somethng saying "Nahm, avoud then nice guys, they are shit, just go for the guys with big boots who break the klaw constantly, and who are a bit shit, cos they dont cvare bout societys rules, tjey dont care bout maybe kissing some other girl when they are drunk, and they dont eally care about you. Cos you are just a pair of legs, thats all you are. to all them "not nice" guys you are a fanny, thats all.
hey dont follow their heart, they foollow their dick. ANd it sucks, cos usnice guys ge3t jack shit, and its a bit balls.
We sdo nothing wrong, we wouldnt dream of cheating on yu in a million years, and we love you with al ourn hearts. And that clearly aint enough, because we are "boring" and "shit" amd "squares"/ We care anbout you. probably more than anyon else cud, but we are too nice to be boyfriends.
And itr leaves you thinking "will I be alone forever" cos it sure as fuck seems thjat way. IM too nice, im not filthy or dirty or mrude, im just David J Hockney, a nice guy in a not-so-nice world,. who cant seem to fit in and find happiness whe nall the world is happy, and who cant seem to find someone who wants him, becauseim too nice.
Its vexed me a bit .
What are us guys meant to do, us nice guys who wouldnt hurt you or make you cry, because if they did then they would hate themselves, and make themselves cry, because the girls mean the world to them. What about us guys who feel they are gonna end up being 40 and still aint had a proper meaningful rellationship.
What about the virgins.
What about the shy geezers who cant help being shy.
What about the guys who dont fit in,. who arent "cool" or " wild" or nothing like that, who just be themselfs in front of you, instead of forming some sort of crazy cult where guys have to ask girls to "suck my dick" before the girls like them, or have to have poked at least one chick before they can go all the way.
Where do they stand in life's crazy crazy cycle, where abouts do they lay?
Guys who lay crying at night because they are worried you dnt like them no more, worried trhat they may have changed and them changes may have made you not like them anymore.
Bcasuse they have feeklings too, contrary to popular belief, and they also need love. And maybe they act happy, maybe thats a cover up so they dont hurt theirn friends by showing how much they are hurting inside, and how much feeling alone is killi ng them.
Thats my rant over, I hope you enmjopyed it, and I hope that those guys and gals who read it let it sink in, and know that everyne is human, everyone needs love, and only certain peopledont have love, and feel alone, truly alone. People like me.
Alcohol makes me a bit philosophical,.
So yeah, thats it. Game over man, game over. if you can read this and see what im trying to get at, congratualtions. If not, just ignore the drunken ramblings of a bitter singleton who is a bit down.
Just ignore me, uys and gals.
Cos im not worth it, im too nice for you girls. so who gicves a shit, as the song goes, "Nice guys finish last". And that is too bloody true it is unbeliavable